Two steps forward...one step (or many steps) back...

This process has been very difficult in many ways. I think I was expecting everything to just fall into place, once I was sure of my calling. I have learned a lot. And I've learned a lot about myself. God is faithful and always with me, but I am not always with Him. I strike out on my own, in my own strength, with my own agenda. Then I wonder why I am not hearing from the Lord and realize I have left Him behind. Then I go back and get on my knees and fellowship with Him and get His perspective. I realize this is not a pass or fail test, but a learning process...all of it. Life. When I fall or misstep, it is an opportunity for me to learn and grow. I realize I am not consistant. I am not a good steward of my time. A lot of times it is the little stuff that trips me up.

I have also realized I cannot do this alone. I need prayer support. So many things need to be done, so many doors opened. Please join me in praying that the Lord open doors, provide funds, give wisdom and direction and get me to France. Also, please continue to pray for the nation of France. Pray the Lord will stir their hearts and give them a thirst for the truth.

I feel so inadequate to serve Him. But I can give him my loaves and fishes...