I have been off track for some time...really since mid-January. I was continually hitting walls, and when I hit the last one I couldn't get back up. I have been sort of wandering in the wilderness. Second guessing, afraid, etc. I was questioning, if God is calling me, why is it so hard? God is so good and faithful. As I was praying about it, he showed me that I was not waiting on HIM, communing with HIM. He has shown me that I have been seeking my "agenda" and not HIM. I have been praying and asking Him to show me His love (reveal it to me in a fresh way). I felt like I had lost sight of that most tender part of Him. It had become me trying to get to France and asking God to help me, which can be ok but not in the way I was doing it. Calvary Chapel Philly just held a Missions Conference this past Saturday (which was so timely). God met me in such a full way. I have come away with so much to meditate on. And, praise God, I made a new connection for France! This has been such a difficult journey with no organization to cover me.
If you are reading this, please pray for me when the Lord brings me to mind. And please pray that the Lord will open the right doors and provide the means to do what He would have me do.
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